Grace, in turn, does her part, interning at the lab in the gene sequencing department daring to believe that one day they might make a breakthrough…and one day they do. Grace stumbles upon a string of code that could be the key. But something inside of Grace has started to unravel. Could her discovery just be a cruel side effect of the disease that might be taking hold of her? And can she even tell the difference?
I expected this book to be a quick read and while the writing style is engaging I ended up taking my time to absorb this novel to try and understand the events that take place. Even after some reflection I can honestly say that the plot for this novel is difficult to pin down and there are a lot of questionable holes in the plot that won’t be wrapped up nicely. The writing in the book feels raw and emotional and is written beautifully.
The research and lab portion of the book was interesting but was left largely unexplored. Everything about Gnentium and the schizophrenia research was there mostly as backstory for the main character’s father and to be a reminder of hope. Some of the science that happens in the novel is either made up or questionable, and I could have done without some of it.
“I see the cliff’s edge drawing nearer. I must jump or I will fall.”
I appreciated this book for the way that it attempts to open a discussion about mental illness. Severe depression and mental illness can be disorienting and it can effect anyone. It becomes clear pretty quickly that the main character is unstable, but to what extent doesn’t become clear until later in the novel as Grace’s mental state deteriorates. I felt connected to Grace and felt just as confused, stressed, and disoriented as she did while reading.
Speaking of mental illness, I’m not entirely sure what to make of this book’s message about it. Is it difficult? Yes. Is there hope? No, hope is foolish. While it was nice to see some of the characters hold out hope for a cure, this book was pretty bleak with the way that it presents mental illness and the people suffering from it. Grace feels hopeless about her condition and her outlook on life becomes worse the more her illness progresses. The cycle with children and mental illness and not having any hope for a decent life was just too dark, too depressing. I honestly found it a little unfair to the millions of people struggling with mental illness out there that do try and carve out some semblance of a good life for themselves. Does mental illness make everything harder? Yes. But is that all there is? No.
Overall a decent read, but I wished that there could’ve been a little more from it.
Sixteen-year-old Grace is in a race against time—and in a race for her life—even if she doesn’t realize it yet…
She is smart, responsible, and contending with more than what most teens ever should. Her mother struggled with schizophrenia for years until, one day, she simply disappeared—fleeing in fear that she was going to hurt those she cared about most. Ever since, Grace’s father has worked as a recruiter at one of the leading labs dedicated to studying the disease, trying to lure the world’s top scientists to the faculty to find a cure, hoping against hope it can happen in time to help his wife if she is ever found. But this makes him distant. Consumed.